From an early age on, I felt in a deep sense that I was looking for my home. I looked around and something felt off. Why are people saying something and I feel something completely different? Why is everyone following some type of rules and seem to never be satisfied with what they have? Why is everything moving so fast?
I felt different, I felt too sensitive for this world. So a long time I just followed what was expected of me, but I always felt like running away. I travelled a lot, and it was always hard to come back 'home' in the Netherlands. At times I could drink a lot or use substances to escape my life and my body. I was always dreaming of a new and better life, a different place where I might feel not so alien. Now I know that the longing I always felt was not really about a place or people, it was about me reuniting with my heart and bringing my soul back to my body.
It was about 4,5 year ago that I looked at my life and felt it was time to change it radically. An inner voice inside me told me to go to Spain and leave my known life behind. First it felt like a pilgrimage, now I understand better that I needed to relocate myself. My soul was in desperate need of cleansing, nature and to dive deeper into my music and spirituality. This journey was a beautiful one, sometimes very challenging and let me discover every corner of my mind, beliefs and shadows. I let go of all material things and lived outside for a long time, in my tent. My uterus tent I called it, because I felt I was going back into the uterus. To be born again. Closer to my heart, closer to who I really am.
Now I settled into my life here in the south of Spain for 2 years and I enjoy being in the middle of the beautiful grounding mountains of Sierra Nevada. Walking to the river almost every day to connect with the water. In a village where time is not just time, everything happens on 'Spanish time'. That slowness and spaciousness feels good right now.
When I look back on this time when everything was changing so much in my outer and inner world, I see that a few things stayed the same. My deep love for discovering every side of life and my soul, my love for nature and my love for music.
Whenever I share these deep loves of mine with someone, I feel a sense of purpose and belonging. I feel that because I walked the steps myself and I am still walking, I can take you with me maybe just for a short while. To show you how empowering it feels to keep finding your way back to your body, to your heart. Even when it's scary or uncomfortable. Especially when it's scary or uncomfortable.
It's an honour for me to guide you and show you what I have learned so you can feel it for yourself and feel closer to your heart and body.
Do you feel the call to work with me?
Don't hesitate to contact me with any questions or wishes.
I meet you with love, Anne